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As Seen Through the Eyes of Mary

Three Days.  Three days You told me.  I have spent three days in such sorrow I have neither eaten nor slept.  Anna had told me at the Temple what You were to suffer, but nothing prepared me for seeing Your face on the road to Calvary.  From the time You were conceived, I felt Your heartbeat along with mine and delighted in continual interior conversations.  Since You handed over Your spirit, I have neither felt Your heartbeat nor heard Your voice.  The silence is deafening.  Every breath I take is a strangled gasp of pain; if it were not for the presence of my guardian angel beside me ceaselessly praying I know I would not survive this sorrow from one breath to the next.

It is almost dawn now and suddenly I feel Your heart beating inside me again.  The entire room is bathed in brilliant light, the warmth of the air itself caresses my cheek and You are there, more impossibly beautiful than my eyes can drink in.  Immediately I am in Your embrace; You kiss the top of my head. My entire being is infused with Your love as I take my first breath in the new world, the redeemed world You have gifted to humanity. Oh the sweetness of knowing that nothing is the same! Oh the sweetness of oneness with You! My joy is so complete that I taste eternity.

You tell me about Joseph, my beloved spouse.  Joseph, who loved you with his entire, heart, mind, and soul — the most faithful and humble of all Your people — He is the first to enter heaven with you.  As you describe the exquisite place you have prepared for him and all the glories he continually experiences in Your eternal presence, my heart rejoices.  How good Our Father is to those who love Him!

You reveal Your plan for my new motherhood.  Just as I gave birth to You in Bethlehem, I gave birth to Your mystical body — The Church — at Calvary.  The entirety of humanity are now my spiritual children.  My heart jubilates in Your beautiful plan. I will nurture the mystical Body of Christ,  just as I nurtured you.  I will pray for them, watch over them, and give them my hand to lead them to You. With this mission You shower graces upon me that are like raindrops sparkling their sunlit jeweled tones, falling as soft as rose petals into my soul.  With each passing moment I love you more and more as I immerse myself ever deeper into Your infinite love. Praise to You Lord Jesus Christ, King of Endless Glory! Praise to You, now and forever!

As a special gift to all my readers, accomplished concert Pianist, composer, and adjunct professor of piano at Benedictine College, Laura Goehner-Moreno is sharing Ave Maria/ Tanti Anni Prima by Astor Piazzolla.   For more of Laura’s beautiful music, visit her YouTube Channel here.